Games everywhere

Since I read Robert Scheinfeld's book and started his online course, I get to see everything as Human Game. 
In my job I just started, I am reviewing business documents like sales strategy, competitions, negotiations on deals, ...etc.  People on the documents are at higher positions in companies, and they play important roles in their business. 
They devote their lives on the business, but now from my viewpoints, they are controlled by the business game.  They never know their lives are controlled...
Almost all successful business people should never know they are in the Human Game.  They should be too busy to take a moment to contemplate who really they are...

Where is the humanity?

We went to a satsang of Jac O'Keafe last night.
I was surprised to see her.  She is a young lady (20s), doesn't look like a typical spiritual teacher.  The way she speaks doesn't like a spiritual teacher, either.She is very sharp and clear, and talks very confidently and is forward with her answer.  I believe she got enlightened, but I couldn't feel profound energy from her.
What she was teaching has a lot of similarity to Robert Scheifeld's.  She often uses the word "movie" for the reality where we are living, just like a hologram that Robert uses.
She emphasized there is no "I" and big consciousness is just there.  Everything is just happening.  No context.  No concept.  Any concept is intellectual creation of our mind. 

Dissociation between True Self and separate self

Joel provided me a very interesting topic this morning, "Spiritual path can be a bypass of psychological problems?", which made me think if spiritual seeking can be escape from the "reality."
Many people tend to get into a spiritual seeking because they have so much pain and suffering in their real life.  It could be relationship issues, mental sickness, failure of work, or whatever.
The concept that "I" am not this small "me" who is suffering from any problem, but "I" am far bigger than this ego, our True Self is Consciousness, Awareness, Oneness, and Creator Itself could rescue us from suffering, denying or dumping our small self or ego.  Because I don't like it, "I" don't want to identify "myself" with that.  In that way, we "escape" from identifying ourselves with this individual self, because we don't want to admit that the imperfect individual self exists.

Deep acceptance

Joel and I went to a satsang of Jeff Foster last night.
He kept talking about deep acceptance, using a metaphor of the ocean and waves.  Just like waves on the ocean, variety of emotions or incidents could arrise, but without discriminating something unfavorable or uncomfortable from the others, just accept everything as it is.  Without judging it, just accept it.
I see similarity everywhere, though words used are different.

Just as it is

Everything is supposed to be simple, beautiful, and perfect just as it is.  Once we go against the natural state or flow, that is, how it should be, distortion occurs, which causes problem or suffering.  Distortion is rationalized by any kind of belief and concepts, and we believe the distortion is the mainstream of our life.
We totally forget the truly natural state.  That's the world where we live, I think.

Simple is not easy

Spiritual teachers say it is simple.  Just be aware.  Be in a moment. 
Aikido sensei says it is simple.  Technique is from simple and natural movements of the body.
But, simple doesn't mean easy.  We have been trained how we make and see things complicated since we were kids.  Everything is not supposed to be that simple. 
The nature is simple, then we don't know how we can be simple like the nature. 
We need to take off a lot of coats that we have kept layering for years.  Some coats are so heavy that we can't easily take them off.
Just like an onion, when we keep peeling the skin, we reach the core and then nothing.
Peeling onion skins makes us cry!

Stop searching

I went to Gangaji's satsang with Joel yesterday. She is really a celebrity.  There were about 250 people.  10 min meditation, 30-40 min talk, and 40-45 min dialogues with the audience.

She said, stop searching.  It is already there. When we stop searching, we see there.
Interestingly, I was told exactly the same thing from the co-organizer of the event during setting up that we were helping with as volunteers.  He said, I already have the direct experience.  My mind just doesn't want to admit it.  My mind has a preexisting concept based on others' talk or experiences, and I am looking for something that my mind expects.  I already have it.  So, stop searching. 
Hmmmm.  Have I had the direct experience already??
Maybe, I should stop having an urge to search?

Goal of the Human Game in this lifetime?

I don't know if there is supposed to be a goal in each life, but I was wondering what it could be for my life this time.
I have been learning a lot of things for the last a few months.  Actually, I think the learning curve got so steep since 2012 started.  I feel it did accelerate.  Maybe, it is because it is really the transitional period of the Earth now.
No matter what, I want to get out from the Human Game.  I want to live my life, being out of the game, even though I am living in the Human Game as long as I have this human body.  I want to experience everything in the world, being out of the game. 

What is enlightenment??

Someone I met at the spiritual discussion group of meetup Joel started said that there is not such a thing as enlightenment exist.  He has been in the spiritual path for 35 years or something, and obviously he knows a lot and has very profound understanding on spiritual stuff with actual experiences.  He said enlightened teachers out there (as they claimed) are not real.  There is no such a teacher.

Enjoy being a player in the game

We all are players in the Human Game, whether or not each of us recognize us as a player.  Just like a video game, just enjoy the game fully as a game whatever incidents happens.  Each experience itself is meaningful and valuable.  Just don't become preoccupied with a drama in each experience too much, forgetting it is a whole game. 

Who is playing this game? 
Our true self.  Consciousness.  Awareness.  Oneness. 
No separation exists there, nor division, nor labeling, nor conditioning does.  Everything and nothingness just be there.

I understand it, but the question is how I can Experience it...

Drama, drama, and drama created by Mind Machine

Everything is just happening.  Emotions are just energy in motion.  However, whatever happens, we create a drama attaching to such a simple happening or a fact, using our Mind Machine and Emotion Machine.
If we didn't have such Mind Machine and Emotion Machine working, we could just see everything simply arising and fading away.
Suffering or discomfort results from such dramas we create by ourselves.
We are experiencing variety of dramas in our life, but they all are our mind's creation.
If we could shut up Mind Machine, we could see everything just as it is, not judging good or bad, positive or negative.  Then, everything should look just beautiful, I guess...

Lots of discomfort

I have been trying to do the process of Phase 2 to get out from the money game in this illusionary world, according to Robert Scheinfeld's book, "Busting Loose from the Money Game." 
The book says we may encounter a lot of discomfort when we start it.
I am experiencing it.  Discomfort comes from several sources, like work and financial stuff, but the point is that I am not content with the current life and myself at this moment, which I know is totally an idea in Phase 1 level.
I got discomfort from even spiritual teaching!

Teaching in Phase 1

Joel and I went to the lecture of Lama Surya Das, Tibetan Buddhism Priest, last night.  He talked about "Living in Buddha Standard Time: It's Not Time We Lack but Focus."
He didn't look like a priest, but just like a typical American big guy.  Loud and humorous.  His book is a best seller, and he is called as American Dalai Lama!
The content of his teaching was really for general public, not spiritual seekers.  He talked about "living in the present moment, focusing on NOW," and "mindfulness."  Time is subjective, not objective.  It is sometimes very fast, and sometimes very slow.  It was very basic stuff, and was a little boring.  I couldn't even agree to some things he said, yet I took away some good words, like "pain is inevitable in our life, but suffering is optional."

Totally out of social value

When we really See the Truth and live in the Truth, I think we would live totally out of social norms and social value, because almost everything that almost everyone regards as important or essential doesn't make sense.
The life itself is just a game to experience and learn something for spiritual growth.  It is totally illusion and hologram.

Proactive vs. Reactive

Proactive actions are always regarded as very good in our life, which we have been taught and learned.  Proactive person usually makes a success of business.  Proactive implies thinking of the future, planning the future and preparing for the future.  So, Mind Machine works hard in proactive actions. 
We believe that is one of the important elements for "success." 

However, it is really something important for the Human Game in Phase 1 level.  Is it so in the absolute Truth?

Limitations

When I was meditating after chanting this morning, one idea came to me.  It is based on what I learned from Robert Scheinfeld.  In the Human Game, Phase 1, the rule is each one of us is supposed to be an opposite being to our true self, that is, Infinite Being, as a player.  So, we all need to have any kinds of limitations, body, mind, emotions, materialistic things, money, ability to do something, human relationships, whatever.  Everything we have been experiencing in this physical world is limitation.