Explanation about Enlightenment in Shingon way

Joel and I went to see Fukuda Sensei of Sacramento Koyasan Temple today.
The explanation about enlightenment in Shingon Buddhism way Sensei gave was interesting.  He used a metaphor of the computer.  Small self as "me" including ego and any characteristics of "me" is something like compilation of software applications.  Each application is in memory that originates from all the past lives, which contains a lot of karmatic relations.  Emptiness is the state of DOS before any applications start up.  It is just a blackout screen.
Enlightenment is the state where we understand the whole system of the Universe. 

Groundhog Day

What if we had no tomorrow, and just kept having today the same day over and over?

This movie is recommended by Robert and Garret, and I understood the reason.
One day in the movie could be just like one life.  We create one day or one life by our own intention.  It is the hologram we create.

Awakened one or Hermit

The world is just a hologram and the game, then why do we have to be too serious about this illusionary life?  Why do we have to be controlled by the social norms?  Why do we care about other's view?

Sure, we can enjoy this game, but then we could quit the game too?

Everything exists only in each own hologram, but...

I am getting to acknowledge everything in this world is my mind's creation in my hologram, but there is one thing that it is hard to detach.  People's death, especially very close ones.  Nothing is an exception in the hologram, and nothing is real there.  However, it is impossible for those who lost a family member to understand that such death is part of their fictional reality.  It is not real. 

Don't attach to the illusionary reality, period.

Robert Scheifeld's "Busting Loose from the Money Game" explains a good point.  If we want to change the reality we are experiencing now, we are trapped by the hologram we are in because we see the hologram as real and we attach to it as real.

Body is a radar

Yesterday's Meetup gathering that Joel and Shawn organized was really good.  The dialogues were very profound.
I got very inspired by some words, and one of them is "Body is a radar."  We get emotions, sensations, feeling, and intuitions through the body.  Those things can be signs from our real self.  If we listen to the body very carefully, we can learn something important for ourselves without being disturbed by many kinds of thoughts or belief.

What is the most important in this lifetime?

Joel keeps teaching me DOING nothing, how to feel DOING nothing for a moment.
In this human game, we have to do something for our future, say, better future.  Reasons why parents always said that you should study hard were they believed or the whole society believed that it would make a good future for us.  Studying hard is for going to a good school.  Going to a good school is for getting a good job.  Getting a good job is for making good money and/or getting a stable life.  Getting good money and/or getting a stable life is for making us happy.
So, we always live to look for something in the future, and ultimately to look for happiness.

How to create "the future"

Here is what Kamihito teaches in his text.  Terry's course says very similar things, and I know there are many other to teach similar things.
How to create "the future"
1. Image the picture we wish
2. Write down or draw the wish
3. Decide what to do for it
4. Understand what to do
5. Tell people about the future we wish
6. Pray for it (Remind strongly ourselves about it)
7. Take necessary actions one by one
8. Experience the future realized in our mind.  (Act, imaging the future.)
9. The future we wish comes true!

Vanilla Sky

It is another movie Robert Scheinfeld recommends.  It was a very interesting movie.  If I saw it last year, I would have a totally different view on it.
The hero, David, (Tom Cruise) is going through many experiences, which almost made me confused, but at last every puzzle is revealed.  From certain point, everything happened in his dream.  It was his creation in his dream, not real.

Too dramatic drama

Dramas in our life are created by our Mind Machine.  Now I got a big question from Joel's recent experience.  Why are people caught in very intense dramatic dramas which others start and have nothing with our own intention?

Drama written and enacted by ourselves

Pack 2 of Robert Schenfeld's online course has arrived.  I've watch one of the 2 videos. 
Interestingly, it is a little related to what I have written in the last 2 posts.  It talks about how Mind Machine (what he calls) works.

See things just as they are

After I wrote the last post, I started to think of seeing things just as they are, eliminating any conditioning as much as possible.
It is so amazing that any aspects of the human life are based on conditioning.  Whatever it is, I guess everything we see is colored with so many paints, and it doesn't show how it just is. 

Lucky doesn't have a name.

My sweet wild squirrel, Lucky, came to the balcony a few times yesterday and came this morning for foods just as usual.  I always prepare nuts and sunflower seeds for his meals.
Yesterday, when I was out, he seemed to have come.  I could tell it because the balcony got a little messed with dirt.  Since he couldn't find foods, he ate a tulip bulb in my flower pot!  For him, it is not a flower bulb that can bloom beautifully later, but it is just something that he found in the soil and can fill his stomach with.  For him, the flower pot is not something to enjoy flowers, but just something with soil and plants. 

Gulp, gulp.  "I'm thirsty after eating lots of nuts." 

Unknown - 2 -

I got a good example about what "unknown" means to us in our mind.

For 1 year old babies, "unknown" implies ultimate potential.  They could be whatever they want to be in the future.
For 50 years old adults, "unknown" implies fear.  They don't have a solid planning for their future old age, which they are afraid that they are just breaking down from now on.

DOING nothing and Laziness

Adyashanti talks about "DOING nothing," not "doing nothing." 

Joel directed to me last week to have one DOING-nothing day to face with my inner self, and I had a half DOING-nothing day.  Actually, I tried to have it.  How difficult it was! 

Unknown

I remember what Joel taught me, willingness to accept "unknown."  That is really profound.

"Unknown" makes those who don't live in a present moment feel fear, because their focus is always on either the future or the past.  They are always interested in or concerned about the future, and try to prepare for anything possible for the future to make themselves feel content or to be released from worry.

Steve Jobs' Stanford Commencement Speech

I saw a Japanese TV program featuring Steve Jobs' very famous speech in 2005.  I have seen the speech before, but I didn't watch it carefully at that time.
It clicked me now. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA

Your time is limited.
Don't waste it, living someone else life.
Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with results of other people's thinking.
Don't let the noise of others' opinion drown at your inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.  They somehow already know what you truly want to become.

City of Angels

I saw this movie which Robert recommends.  It was the second time.  I slept a little bit in the middle of the movie. 
I think the point there is we are born here because we need to experience all things we experience with a human body.  The purpose of the life as a human is to experience whatever it is.  We often label each experience and judge it as something like negative or positive, but maybe each experience is equally precious.  How nice we could feel everything just as so real, although it is just illusion and fiction that our mind creates. 
Let's enjoy every experience in the life whatever it is, because that is the meaning of the life as a human.

True Reality

I am still in the middle of reading Adyashanti's book "The End of Your World."  I just finished Chapter 3 out of 13 chapters.  That's damn great.
Reality is not something like a paradise, which I had imagined.  It is just Reality.
I am now getting to understand the meaning of "Looking, looking, looking," which Joel quoted John Sherman.  But, we can't usually look, because our eyes are so cloudy or we wear sunglasses fixated to the face almost permanently.

The Lathe of Heaven

I saw the movie, which is one of the movies Robert Scheinfeld recommends.  It is a movie for Phase 2 player.
The hero, George, has special power with which his dreams influence reality, though he can't control what kind of dreams he has.  He has a dream, and next morning he wakes up he sees that reality as the dream shows.  He is so afraid of dreaming, and got mentally ill.  A dream therapist whom George visits takes advantage of his ability and manipulates the hero's dreams for his own interest.  He used to be a humble therapist, but one day, he suddenly owns a huge institute with a gigantic fancy building.

I want only the Truth

Yesterday I sent an email to Terry to request refund for a half portion of his teaching course I have been taking.  (Actually, I haven't touched it for long time now, though.)  I feel bad a little about it, but if I keep the materials I would never use, it would be a waste.  So, I want to return the half which is really like new. 

Meditation is a sleeping pill

Every time I do meditation, I get sleepy and almost fall asleep, even when my body is not tired at all.  Feels like something prevents me from meditating! 
When I can stay "awake," then my mind machine always works so hard. 

Fear and Games...

There should be a lot of kinds of fear that prevents us from spiritual awakening. Joel asked me some times what would be my fear.
I have found one of the biggest fear I have.

My first post...Spiritual awakening, enlightenment, ...

I have heard and learned a lot about such things, and am still doing so. I believe that my understanding on it has been getting deeper and deeper, yet I have never experienced it. That makes me so frustrated now. Adyashanti says more and more people have been experiencing it lately. It used to be for only limited people, like ascetic monks in Zen temples or monasteries. It may also show that the Earth is now evolving into the next phase.